I’ve been there with you. I know words don’t fix it, but here’s what I tell myself: one foot in front of the other. Pick three things to deal with. If you finish one today, you’ve won. Same tomorrow. When going through hell, keep going.
but I CAN’T, I can’t deal with any of the things that I’ve ‘picked’ to do today
Like I thought I’d clean a bit because my mother’s coming tonight for my graduation ceremony
and I wanted to look for apartments
and call my landlord
and call apartment owners to set up meetings to look at apartments
but I can’t make myself do any of those things, because I can’t stop crying and shaking long enough to do them, and that makes me feel even WORSE about myself because I DID set goals to get the big problems solved but I can’t do anything to help myself
and ‘taking a break’ or watching a movie or having a nap or going for a walk won’t solve anything because I’ve been like this for weeks and months now and it’s not going to pass
and I’ve run out of time
I just feel so shitty and I woke up like this
can’t stop crying and I can’t do any of the things I had to do
like clean my apartment because my mom’s coming over
or look for apartments and make arrangements to meet potential flatowners because I’m fucking running out of time and have nowhere to go
I’ve got this graduation ceremony today and I’m starting work at the hospital tomorrow and I just… I’m not even excited
I’m just exhausted and miserable and anxious
and it feels like I’m paralyzed
the more anxious and panicked I am about finding an apartment the more I find myself incapable of actually picking up the phone or looking up ads or even thinking about it
'Hush now. I'm only returning your coat.'
Sorry for the double post, but I’m hoping the quality is slightly better in this one. I noticed my previous upload seemed grainy on the zoom in.
Not completely finished, but I need to let this one rest for a bit (no pun intended).
Sherlock in one of my most favorite scenes in the show.
people who go into tags just to be mad about the contents of said tag
he looks so happy!
No look I like Charlie and he’s awesome but
That is enough to pay my tuition for the year.
That is 5 month’s salary for me.
That is at least five months rent.
That would be enough to allow me to fucking LIVE
That much money can actually save me from living on the streets
I can’t even begin to explain how frustrated this makes me
How can money be such a non-issue for people
"id date a fan" doesnt mean "id date a 12 year old who knows more about me than i do"
nope im not a fully grown adult sir, no sir
SHOUT-OUT TO ALL MY FRIENDSHIPS ON TUMBLR WITH TEENAGERS
YOU ALL HAVE BETTER BLOGS THAN I DO
YOU ARE THE FUTURE AND I AM OKAY WITH THAT
‘omg I love you you are so kind and aaaaah how old are you’
‘16 how old are you?’
I think this when I’m chatting with people on here and then look at their blog description and its like ‘16/17’ and I’m like holy shit you are the same age as my baby sister what the hellllll
Yeah but for those of us who have older tumblr friends, thank.
speaking as a 17 year old, trust me when i say it means a lot when 20-somethings on tumblr treat us with respect and take us seriously because god knows no one else older than us does
Yes I second this
ehhh, ‘hi omg WE MUST BE FRIENDS UR SO FUNNY! HOW OLD ARE YOU??”
"14, and you"
Just caught myself actually screaming at a cockroach to “DIE MOTHERFUCKER JUST FUCKING DIE YOU PIECE OF SHIT DON’T YOU FUCKING DARE TRY TO GET AWAY YOU FUCKING BITCH” while smashing it repeatedly with my shoe even after its innards were basically spread all over the floor
I do believe that’s not exactly an indicator of emotional stability.
What a shitty day.
do not leave tumblr open on the computer at work when you’re on a smoke break
do not leave tumblr open on the computer at work
especially when the tab is open on your dash
there is a 400% likelihood that the boss will come over and scroll down and see porn
d o n o t leave your tumblr open ON THE COMPUTER AT WORK